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I'm stressed over something that I don't really wanna achieve..
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FUNNY YUNNUY
18 October 2009 @ 11:53 am
i think i haven't gotten back my studying momentum since i stepped into uni 2 months ago or so.
even though my grades aren't too bad, uni is just too competitive that i feel like i'm nailed to the bottom.
final exams in 1 month's time, i need to find back the determination.
i really want a better balance in life though..
putting studies aside, i think i'm really a self-confused homosapian.
for one moment, i think what i did was perfectly fine,
the next moment, i wonder if it was right and worth it.
i get so overwhelmed with this kind of confusion
and i can't set my mind into doing something else - STUDY
sigh, who can i tell this feeling to?
even though my grades aren't too bad, uni is just too competitive that i feel like i'm nailed to the bottom.
final exams in 1 month's time, i need to find back the determination.
i really want a better balance in life though..
putting studies aside, i think i'm really a self-confused homosapian.
for one moment, i think what i did was perfectly fine,
the next moment, i wonder if it was right and worth it.
i get so overwhelmed with this kind of confusion
and i can't set my mind into doing something else - STUDY
sigh, who can i tell this feeling to?
Emotion: 
confused
confused09 October 2009 @ 01:35 pm
07 October 2009 @ 05:24 pm
why did i not give you more company, care and love?
why did i not take a photo together with you?
why didn't i grow up faster?
i really wanted you to see me graduate..
i began to think of all these only when you're gone, grandma.
but its all too late, its just too late.
why did i not take a photo together with you?
why didn't i grow up faster?
i really wanted you to see me graduate..
i began to think of all these only when you're gone, grandma.
but its all too late, its just too late.
20 September 2009 @ 12:34 pm
everyone says:
friends come and go..
even so, we still need friends around us most of the time.
friends that we can actually clip and not just click.
i hate the process of making new friends.
all the superficial conversations, all the fake smiles and laughters are way too tiring.
what's worse is when u discover that these people that you have been trying so hard with,
are not really the kind of friends that u hoped for.
then, you have to go around making 'new' friends again.
and sad enough, the cycle may just repeat itself.
sometimes, i just wish that i could survive alone.
someone says:
mutual trust and understanding is the key to a good relationship.
strangely, this sentence starts to mutate when emotions get involved.
you'll find your heart taking control over your brain.
and this is where disputes are generated.
yet, feelings get deeper each time after a fight.
how i wish i could be emotionless.
so that i can give a poker face.
drained.
i find myself losing focus while meddling with relationships.
things are just not as smooth sailing as i thought they will be.
i kinda miss the times back in JC.
i kinda miss M.
friends come and go..
even so, we still need friends around us most of the time.
friends that we can actually clip and not just click.
i hate the process of making new friends.
all the superficial conversations, all the fake smiles and laughters are way too tiring.
what's worse is when u discover that these people that you have been trying so hard with,
are not really the kind of friends that u hoped for.
then, you have to go around making 'new' friends again.
and sad enough, the cycle may just repeat itself.
sometimes, i just wish that i could survive alone.
someone says:
mutual trust and understanding is the key to a good relationship.
strangely, this sentence starts to mutate when emotions get involved.
you'll find your heart taking control over your brain.
and this is where disputes are generated.
yet, feelings get deeper each time after a fight.
how i wish i could be emotionless.
so that i can give a poker face.
drained.
i find myself losing focus while meddling with relationships.
things are just not as smooth sailing as i thought they will be.
i kinda miss the times back in JC.
i kinda miss M.
Emotion: 
pessimistic
pessimistic